year twenty nineteen
our twenty nineteen
our now & our future
our twenty nineteen
matt and i have been together now for twenty months
and
in the one year and eight months together.
we have travelled alone, and together,
we found common interests,
we fell in love,
we supported each other
we both left our jobs,
we found pure happiness,
we felt sadness,
we experienced loss,
we both have grown individually, and together.
and
we have decided each year moving forward we will intentionally check in with each other, individually and together.
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our now
what sparks joy?
m: animals
j: dogs
what should i be spending more time doing?
m: fixing my body
j: building a better relationship with my dad
what am i struggling with?
m: uncertainty & the balance of advocacy
j: self worth & feeling emotions
what is my goal for the year?
m: career direction
j: networking and speaking my truth
if you had more time, what would you do?
m: play an organized sport
j: hiking
what is one word that resonates with you?
m: bewok, meaning to just be with no stress or pressure
j: safeness
where do i want to be in five years?
m: in a house with at least one child
j: surrounded by babies, puppies & kittens
what do i want to improve?
m: weed smoking
j: feeling emotions
what is my priority?
m: get through school
j: myself
where do i want to travel to?
m: japan
j: vietnam
what is important to me?
m: happiness
j: people i love
what is my biggest fear?
m: that i won’t figure it out
j: failing & other’s opinions & judgment
what should i start doing?
m: something artistic
j: feeling & letting emotions come
what should i stop doing?
m: smoking weed
j: feeling irritated towards family
what should i continue doing?
m: helping others
j: writing & sharing
our next five years together
we also spent some time discussing our five year timeline together;
we talked about it all.
where we want to live?
what we want and need to do?
what our life might look like together.
what we hope our life looks like together.
what would happen if things don’t go as we hope.
what are the alternatives?
what are the concessions?
how do we think it will make us feel?
we both know, the next five years can unfold just the way we hope & think or it may not.
you’ll have to keep following us to see how this all plays out.
moving forward
each year we are going to make an effort to go off the grid, connect with each other with intention.
and
maybe we will ask the same questions each year, maybe we won’t.
but
we will make the time to disconnect from the world and connect with ourselves and each other.
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love always, m&j
in year twenty nineteen, we camped two nights at lake easton.