the next chapter
it all started one day when…
i was full of self doubt.
one of my best friends was trying to help me see all the successful things i had accomplished. she went on and listed things like:
the team i had built and lead at work
a continuously growing department
my personal website
building websites for friends
helping other small businesses
my secret blog
my plain old self, and the impact i have had on my friend's lives
that last point was what hit home.
“Anything you lose from being honest, you never really had to begin with.”
i have spent the last seven months…
making one of the hardest decisions ever
working day, night and weekends to prepare for the next chapter
building something that is me in every way possible
finding the courage to say goodbye to a steady, consistent income, benefits, pension
trying to let go of the guilt that i am ‘abandoning’ my team and all that i have accomplished in 4.5 years
feeling a mixed bag of emotions from extreme insecurity to a dabble of confidence
worrying if i am making the right decision
pushing my comfort zone
hoping that i don’t regret giving up what i have
wondering if the grass is really greener on the other side
balancing my desire for adventure and playing it safe
learning how to put myself first
reminding myself that this is what i have to do
and the hardest part
accepting the fact that i will no longer see some of my favourite people every single day
but it’s now or never.
“Being able to do more of what I love lights me up and terrifies me at the same time. It’s electric. If I’ve learned anything, it’s to trust and run toward that feeling as hard as I can.”
the next chapter…
is exciting but terrifying, it’s freeing and crippling.
this is me finally taking a leap of faith, actually chasing one of my crazy business ideas and dragging anyone who wants to come along for the ride with me.
i am combining one of my weird career aspirations of becoming a "personal assistant" and my dream of starting my own business with my vision of creating a community of like-minded people.
my business is not just another service type business, where transactions are being exchanged. i want everyone to feel part of the team and i actually want to become friends and build connections. i want to utilize my strengths and experience to help others live their best life.
for as long as i can remember, i had always said that
